Being myself I like to think philosophically from time to time. So I'm sitting here in my college class and i come upon this old website...where i can spam my thoughts. As i sit here working away at my studies, tossing out paper after paper, with the sole intent of pleasing my instructor to increase my GPA. Which would later increase my income and make me...happier? Then I think about all the stress, anxiety and lack of sleep I have put into this college and I come to conclude.. that i dont know what I want in life. I use my evenings to watch anime or to otherwise "de-stress" with video games or anything within my grasp. So what is my meaning of life/Is there a meaning of life? When I picture my perfect life... i see only a few things. These few things hardly resemble the life that I am leading now. I see me far away from everything I know. In a more.."perfect" place with happiness and carelessness all around me. I see sunsets glowing in my eyes and rainbows overhead.An loving girl beside me a dim lite night sky and a brilliant ocean in front of me. I see me in the anime which I am watching...and i think to myself, that would be perfect. But, would it? If I was a person in one of the animes I watch I would still go through the many different emotions that my body is feeling and I would still be stressed beyond reason. I would in theory, still be me.
Now im not saying I hate my life nor despise my existance. What I am saying is. Why?
Where can I find that serenity that I crave?
Now im not saying I hate my life nor despise my existance. What I am saying is. Why?
Where can I find that serenity that I crave?